in 3 weeks i will be heading to south carolina for the summer, and maybe not coming back. i can’t wait<3 dreams do come true.

Giving my notice tomorrow. Last month of work. Yikes

decisions that don’t have a wrong answer. why is this so hard. all of the people who are usually the most blunt with their opinions keep telling me theres no wrong decision to make. i just neeed someone or something to tell me what to do.

ive never been so proud to finish anything in my entire life. the teamwork of strangers throughout a 12.5 mile treacherous obstacle course was truly astounding. i honestly cannot wait until the next one!

its funny how far from reality people’s perception can be.

just in a really bad mood lately. i feel like im growing further and further apart from people. it seems like work has taken over my life and when im not working i dont even know what to do with myself. im ony my 4th straight week of working overtime. and im reaching my breaking point. it sucks

in 10 weeks i will hopefully if all goes according to plan, be in my car on the way to south carolina for minimally the summer, and i literally could not be happier.

tomorrow will be 16 years since the day my nanny passed away. as if valentines day isn’t bad enough for being a hallmark holiday that is a waste of time and money, on a day thats supposed to be full of love, it was one of the most heartbreaking days ive ever lived, and one of the memories that is so strongly embedded in my mind since i was 7 years old. i’ve only ever seen my dad cry twice, and they have both been solely related to my nanny’s death. so tomorrow, the only thing that will be on my mind while im working all day will be remembering her, because she was one of the greatest people i was ever blessed to know.

Ive been working at the job for 8 months now, and i’ve watched 2 out of 3 people in the pastry dept get laid off. I couldn’t believe that i was the one that got chosen to continue working there, i was the last one to join the staff. Maybe it was my vocalness about voicing my opinions and thoughts on desserts, or maybe they truly see talent and promise. Either way, it feels good. I was kind of disappointed at first because i thought that being let go would be the only way that i could get a week or two of a break. Im now starting to finally feel happy. I do believe that this is the right job for me, i do believe that im talented, and i do want to succeed. Ive kicked ass at achieving several of my goals in the past year, and i plan on continuing to reach plenty more. And its through all of these things that i can learn to overlook the endless weekend hours that i miss out on barhopping and having fun with my friends for work. Because in the end a few years down the road, it will be worth it. Someday i will open my own place, and i will have the time to relax. work hard, play harder. and for right now the emphasis is on the work hard. and i might not make much, but what i make i value and save and it makes it worth it.